So the day has come where I leave you enter the world of school. Tucking you in to bed last night was an emotional one my beautiful little boy (I kept you up a little longer and cherished those cuddles!) I just can’t quite believe that you are even big enough to go to full time school, how? How is my little boy grown up enough to hack all day at a school. The thought of walking you to your playground and waving you off into the world of unknown terrifies me little one. Watching you form a line with the other little children ready to walk in to the school by yourself will set me off completely. I am so used to having you there every day how will I cope without you by my side? You won’t be there from 9am-330pm in my life monday-friday. What about our play dates with your friends? Afternoons at the park and going on adventure treasure hunts. I know I have your brother to keep me company but without you there my life will feel so unusual.
Will you wonder where I am? Will you miss me as much as I will miss you? What if you fall over and need me to give you a magic kiss and a cuddle to make you feel better? I just don’t think I am ready to let you grow my heart breaks at the thought of letting you grow up. Letting you in to the big wide world of learning and becoming independent.
Your uniform and school shoes are waiting downstairs for you. You picked your dinosaur shoes with such excitement with the dino footprint at the bottom and walked back and fore to make sure they were comfortable. Your uniform drowns you a little as you are still quite small I mean you have only recently turned four! All the other children just seem so much bigger than you as lots of them are soon to turn five. I think there is such a massive difference between four and five and the things you can learn in a year its crazy.
Will you be able to dress yourself? Will you eat all of your paw patrol filled lunch box? What if you are too scared to ask to go to the toilet? Or what if you are by yourself all day without anybody to play with as you can get quite shy! Please find some little friends to join in with and play. I know after a few weeks you will be fine its just the thought of actually letting you go. As you are my shadow, my best friend and you are always stuck to my side. I hope you stay friends with your nursery friend who you love, and grow up with each other as I always thought it would be lovely to have a friend stay the same throughout my childhood.
You are so excited about your book bag and I can’t wait for you to come home and read your books with me. I can’t wait for you to come home and tell me all about your day and what you got up to and what you have learnt. You are so bright, I hope your teacher can see that. Your imagination is incredible and I am so proud of you every single day. You light up my world and I know that you will bring happiness to the children and teachers around you. You will be amazing at anything you put your mind to my beautiful boy I know you will and I know its time to let our special bond be shared.
I will fight back the tears as I know today will be the day I say goodbye to my little boy who is all mine, and bring home someone who will just seem a lot more grown up. I can’t wait to see your happy smiley face run out at me when I pick you up, and I can’t wait to play superheroes for hours after school as they are the moment I will cherish forever. Thank you for giving me the best four years and three months of my life, you really are mummy’s best friend and I love you all the stars in the sky.
You did me so proud Mr! You walked in with happiness and went down those big steps all by yourself! Mummy cried the entire way home and I am still sobbing now! I can’t wait to hear all about your day and pick you up! Have a ball Josh these are the best times of your life